Dreaming Her Presence | Waking Up to Reality

Sometimes our dreams are extremely vivid and life-like, while at other times they're not even memorable. Experiencing her presence in your dreams can be wonderful, while waking up to the reality that she's gone is not. 

I've had a number of these dreams. I have dreamt of us on vacation with our kids, and it seemed SO real. 

The sight, sound, and emotion was as if I were physically there. I could literally hear her voice, using phrases she often used when speaking. In those moments, I experience what feels like true rest and comfort.

Am I the Only One?

Have you ever had those dreams? Where you wake up feeling that what you dreamed really happened? 

As adults, we generally don't discuss what we dream about.. But these dreams can almost give us the feeling that we have had another experience with our loved one. While we know it's not real, we sometimes long to go back to sleep and re-enter that dream, right where we left off. It's as if it puts us in a state of euphoria.

Waking up from such dreams can spark our emotions. I have woke from this type of dream, feeling stunned, realizing that my beautiful wife is gone. It's almost as if I've just learned this truth for the first time, and in the moment, feel complete horror. 

I have also woken knowing the reality, wishing and hoping it was all a bad dream.

The Re-Shaping of Our Subconscious

I've spent time thinking about this, and believe this is part of our subconscious mind's process. I think we have to realize that our mind has to work things out and adjust to the deep sadness we feel, and the traumatic experience of loss. 

Although we know the truth, and accept it as the truth on the surface, our subconscious still has to reshape and adjust. 

Embracing Our Dreams

We already know that our dreams don't represent reality. They may represent what we wish was reality, at times? When reality, emotion, and our desire for how we wish things were are mixed together in our dreams, anything can happen. Especially because of our emotions, which are up and down like a roller-coaster.

Personally, I look forward to these dreams. Even though waking up can bring sadness, the joy of the experience makes it worth it for me. I'm willing to feel the sadness when I wake up, if I can hear her voice again, even if it's only in my head. 

I feel as if my memories of the smallest details are brought to the surface.  I know these dreams probably won't last forever. As time has passed, they've become less frequent. I cherish every memory, as I'm sure you do as well. 

You're Not Alone

Be encouraged. Embrace your memories, both the wonderful, and the not so great ones. Focus on the wonderful ones. Know that even though you may feel lonely, you're not alone. There are others going through it too. It's not easy, but you've got to keep looking forward.

No matter what, don't give up.

Anthony